So… Few people will find any sympathy for me. Perhaps I should just keep my poor sad stories to myself. I will never forget that day walking into Multi Service that first time. I wanted to turn around and go back home and skip the interview. As I got out of my car and headed into the non-descript brick shell of cubicles, God spoke to me. “You need to take this step.” So I went. I took that step. It was my first interview. It caught me off guard. Nothing happened for several more weeks. God was/is right. Isn’t He always? Not sure what He has in store for me. Overall, I generally hate it. Office gray cubicle. No inspiration. No real “cause” except to support the owner’s hobby. I talked to Ryan this evening. I indicated that it very much like artist management. Many similarities. However, he nailed it (or shall I say he nailed me!) by saying, “yeah, it sound likes everything you do in artist management, except your heart isn’t in it.” Oh, the heart. You know, he did nail me. In all my struggles to find the perfect job, well, ANY job, I left my heart somewhere. Or at least I never really looked at it that way. But, as I come down from snuggling with my kids, I know where my heart is. And we needed some time. Am I justifying? Probably. Is that Ok? Yes, it is. Wait. Justifying?!? The voice of God spoke clearly to me. “You need to take this step.” Do I feel I am where God wants me? Though I may not especially like florescent lighting and Dell craputers, yes. I am where God wants me. I’m sure I will complain about where I’m at. How they have no right brains there. No inspiration. Corporate brainwashed minds. And that’s where God wants me. I am to learn and to be a Light.
