I’m 40. When I was a kid, I was just a kid. Ok, so most people are. When I was 10 or so, I wanted to be in a band. I loved music. Rock n roll. But, I was a Christian. And, even at that age, I felt the “call” to have my life reflect my faith. I should have studied the school of Journey, The Police, Genesis, U2, Chicago, Boston, etc. However, I was a bit warped and didn’t listen to much “secular” music at the time. I listened to Hope of Glory, The Imperials, Sweet Comfort Band, Fireworks, 2nd Chapter of Acts, etc. I’m not ashamed of that, though I did miss out on some great music that I have since come to enjoy very much. My point is that I felt that music was a platform and why would I NOT use that to affect the world. I digress here before I even start. But it lays a groundwork. Since then, my life has always seemed to lead somewhere. Even when I felt like there was “more” for me, at least I felt like God was preparing me for what was next. And there was/is a definite thread throughout my life. For the first time, ever, I have no direction. Some say, take the first step, that’s all God is asking. I don’t even know where that first step is. The steps are gone. I’ve looked. Lowe’s isn’t hiring. Audio speaker sales don’t want me. I don’t have enough of a demo reel to land a video production job. Audio jobs are non-existent. I have absolutely failed at networking (that’s a whole ‘nother post). Hell, even the Mac computer/networking people don’t even want me. I have hit the proverbial brickwall.
