things i’m still figuring out

the name says it all

not so fake – the $416.21 experiment

Without going into much personal detail in this public, albeit little read forum, the idea of being a male in a female dominated world has crumbled. At least in the interior design field. Or, at least for now. Or,...

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fake

I feel like such a fake. Is everyone staring at me? Can they see through me? Or do they even see me at all? Why am I here? Will they kick me out? Ugh. Taking a class at JCCC. "Starting" the...

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moving backward to move forward

As (most likely) typical of men going thru mid-life, I’m working at what I finally want to be when I grow up. Unlike many men in similar situations, I feel like I have little to no “career” to look...

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trajectory

This certainly isn’t original, but, part of the story at this point… You’re headed down a path and then get just one degree off. At first, you can still see the line of the path you were on. You...

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debt, shattered dreams and abandonment

There are countless stories in Christian history of people following after God, able and willing to go where He leads, only to find themselves stuck in a place far from where they see themselves. Most likely the most famous...

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finding soul vs. losing faith… a “getting kicked in the balls” story

For years I’ve searched. I tend to enjoy doing so many things, I’ve never thought of myself as having a hobby. As I’ve aged, i’ve found my life melding together more and more. I used to keep my work life...

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caring vs. not

I’m involved in several situations; at work, at church and in life, that “require” some level of ownership. At a basic level, these “things” are project based. “What should we do about...?” is the common question. And it requires...

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i’ve grown soft and sometimes i don’t like it

“back in the day”, there was this person, not some I know well (!), but someone...well, let’s just call him “Old Byron”. He was a nice fellow, well, sorta. The thing was, he was very pointed and didn’t (appear)...

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the other side of judging

Several months ago, I went on a rant about judging. I generally came to the conclusion that I had hoped wouldn’t happen... Of all the “judgers”, I am the worst. I’ve thought about the whole judgmental thing a lot...

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the problem with Ozzy…

... is the problem of “me”. I remember today’s Ozzy from last year and find myself not too different from a year ago. This quote cut thru the core: Beware of refusing to go to the funeral of your own...

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