ozzy nails it again

Never let the sense of past failure defeat your next step.

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not so fake – the $416.21 experiment

Without going into much personal detail in this public, albeit little read forum, the idea of being a male in a female dominated world has crumbled. At least in the interior design field. Or, at least for now. Or,...

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fake

I feel like such a fake. Is everyone staring at me? Can they see through me? Or do they even see me at all? Why am I here? Will they kick me out? Ugh. Taking a class at JCCC. "Starting" the...

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moving backward to move forward

As (most likely) typical of men going thru mid-life, I’m working at what I finally want to be when I grow up. Unlike many men in similar situations, I feel like I have little to no “career” to look...

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trajectory

This certainly isn’t original, but, part of the story at this point… You’re headed down a path and then get just one degree off. At first, you can still see the line of the path you were on. You...

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debt, shattered dreams and abandonment

There are countless stories in Christian history of people following after God, able and willing to go where He leads, only to find themselves stuck in a place far from where they see themselves. Most likely the most famous...

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ive turned into one of those guys

I used to rub shoulders with “cool” people… semi-celebrities or, at least people who hung out with celebrities. I still “know” people who hang out with celebrities… however, I’m definitely on the outside… perhaps 10,000 miles away, looking in. And...

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surreal day – a collision of times, at Tabor College

I peer out the window during a small worship gathering this morning. A collision of “times” hits me. outside one window is the graveyard in which my grandparents are buried. Much of my physique (as amazing as it is!)...

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suicidal… optimist that is

Perhaps I haven’t lost hope or faith after all. I still think that this is all leading somewhere special. The music endeavors, computer skills, people skills, Strengths, construction skills, church leadership and all the knowledge and experience I have...

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sara b

I should refuse to listen to Sara Bareilles on my way to work. Listening to her music makes me 1). WIsh I were still involved in music. and 2). Melancholy which makes me 3). wish I were still involved...

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