I hate that cutesy saying, “If you love something let it go, if it comes back to you…” I typically find such things nice for a puppy poster. Get the darts, we have a target!
Yet…
That particular saying speaks of a crossroads. A crisis of belief or even a challenge to your faith. I’ve had several such “letting go” situations in my life. And down to each one, God has always known what’s best for me. The letting go is actually a letting go of selfishness, putting me in a place to actually be used by God.
As this is true, why is it still so hard to let go? For me, it’s also about choices. I feel my choices have expanded each day. Life has not brought clarity, it has brought more choice coupled with deeper responsibility. Ultimately, I believe God has given us the opportunity to choose. Maybe it IS as the musical, Children of Eden talks about it, choice was a result of The Fall. Perhaps God didn’t intend us to have choice. And fortunately (?!), He’s blessed me with many. Regardless, we live in a world of choice. What will I do with that?
These ideas tend to be a current theme in my life. From the aforementioned musical to small group this past Sunday evening. I feel like God has been working in me, really working in me. Quoting again from my journal from last week, “I’ve said it before, but, it’s interesting to be placed in a place of being willing to be used by God and then watching Him exercise His rights. Ok, “interesting” is a poor choice of words. Exciting would be a better option!“
Then we have ”God’s timing“ involved in all this. Not sure what to say about that. I’m still trying to figure out how ”time“ and God fit together. He who always has been and will forever be… What’s time got to do with it?
I suppose it’s largely due to some personality traits, but, I tend to try to be willing to be used and then watch God work. Unfortunately, for a Western business world, this approach doesn’t make a lot of sense. We are taught to go after things. Climb that ladder. And then there’s Eph. 5:16 which talks about ”making the most of every opportunity.“ What do I do with that? Isn’t that free reign to climb away?
Once again, I’m not effectively communicating my thoughts. Bear with me. It’s thru communication that I process.
I’m being prepared for a crossroads. Not sure what that means or how or when it will present. Bring it on…
