o, how I would have despaired
if You had not come found me there
i can lean against Your throne and find my peace
find my peace
Today is the second time I listened to the song by JK. That record was hard to listen to. I found it at a used record store for 5.98 and picked it up. She wrote the song partly as an honor (if I can be so bold as to use that word here) to me as Psalm 27 is one of my favorite scriptures.
God found me today. And I can rest, lean as JK says, against His throne. Thru all that from late 1997, I lost a lot of confidence. I’m ready to be over that. Over the why’s and who’s. Ready to allow God to restore my confidence. In Him. Ps. 27:3 says that even though people wage war, armies attacking me, my heart will not fear. Even thru the war, maybe because of it, I will be… confident! Why have I allowed the enemy to wage war against me and win the battles? God, I am ready to be restored. My confidence renewed. And to allow You to work thru me. I have beaten myself up so much. Should’ve all over myself. I’m tired. I want to be confident. I want to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. I want to LIVE. 27:14 talks of waiting. I hate waiting. Maybe the issue here isn’t the “waiting” so much as it is “the Lord”. Perhaps we wouldn’t have to wait if we were truly following hard after You. Combine all this with Pastor Tom’s message of 062506 about the church of Laodicea. I want to live a significant life.
Thanks for finding me today. For giving me that time. Thanks for JK. Help me to seek Your face. Help me to dwell in Your house.
