speaking of chasing… my whole life, I have typically taken things as they come. Oh yes, I pursued my first marriage of the band. I drove that perhaps too hard. But even that, I worked hard, did what I could and let things happen. I/we didn’t really “go after” anything. Just put ourselves, either by choice or happen chance, in the right place to let happen what happens.
The “big” things that have happened to me were not some large event or revelation. They just happened. Yes, I had always wanted to work with other (solo female!) artists, so, we meet old friends at a Starlight performance! They tell us of what they are doing in Pittsburg, KS, we end up moving and weeks after we move, I meet Jennifer Knapp… That’s how it’s gone for me. Through that I meet Barry Dean. Then, I end up needing a “real” job, take a position at a school district and meet Nathan Shaver in the process. Nathan in turn introduces me to onetimeblind
I envy those Type A people who set these big life goals for themselves. They always wanted to be an astronaut, so they go and do it. Their life is all planned out before they hit preschool. I just take it as it comes. And right now, I’m wondering if I should start a different plan. I hate to say it, I really do, becasue some day, perhaps, it will all come clear. Maybe tomorrow. But, I really don’t see why I’m here right now. And to look beyond this is impossible. I feel like I still have my whole life ahead of me it’s just half as long as most other people. Is that positive or negative thinking?
