I guess overall, with the missing JK thing, the rock n roll life thing, I miss being involved on a deeper level with music. Ok, so OTB wasn’t directly music. And that led to friends not being supportive of my being involved with them. I enjoyed mixing CBC sound this past weekend as I recorded the event. I felt like I was producing, though I wasn’t directing anything. Just mixing. And doing my best. I feel like going out and finding something/someone. Yet, God has always, ALWAYS led me to the right places. When I go looking, I find that I’m there on behalf of me. And if I try to force it, well, then it’s forced. I have to believe that God will have me involved again someday. I want to do my trombone record this year, but, I’ve yet to pick up the horn to practice. That’s where to start. Not in buying a new mike or preamp (though I’m actively looking!). I sat, listening to the ONHS orchestra wreck West Side Story songs, and I imagined being in a beautiful theater listening to the musical from the 10th row. Music is such an expression. I’m not the best at anything I do/play. But, I miss it nonetheless. And I pray that God will allow me to be involved again someday. He’s working on my soul. Bring it on.
