I used to think I was just spinning my wheels. And then it dawned on me, in order to “spin”, you’d have to be in gear.
I’m grateful for a job. Don’t get me wrong. It’s provided an opportunity to just “chill” for a while without having to be emotionally attached. It’s forced me to work in a position/environment that I’ve rarely, if ever, played in.
But, (and you knew that was coming!) it’s a position that doesn’t require much brain effort.
I’ve heard it say that the brain is a muscle that must be exercised in order to just maintain strength. I sit in my cube all day, pushing buttons and babysitting. And then, every once in a while, I’m asked a question or I sit in a meeting and my brain is just mush.
I want to think I’m here for a reason, but when will that reason be over?
I just hope neutral doesn’t carry over to other parts of my life. It might be too late.
