I’ve struggled with how to surrender my life over the past few months. Ozzy keeps pounding that theme over and over into my head. And I’ve “succeeded” at the to some degree. Just yesterday, I was convicted in doing the right thing in something seemingly insignificant. Later in the day, another conviction at which I didn’t succeed so well at. It’s difficult to completely surrender my will to that of God. I still desire to maintain some level of “me” in the equation. Ugh.
Even in seeking great things, self will comes into play. As Ozzy says today:
If you seek great things for yourself, thinking, “God has called me for this and for that,” you barricade God from using you. As long as you maintain your own personal interests and ambitions, you cannot be completely aligned or identified with God’s interests. This can only be accomplished by giving up all of your personal plans once and for all, and by allowing God to take you directly into His purpose for the world.
There’s the gal I recently met who confessed that she “told” God where He wanted her… Bold statement, only to end up where He wanted her, not where she wanted Him to want her… Ozzy goes on to say:
When I stop telling God what I want, He can freely work His will in me without any hindrance.
When do I get to that point where I stop telling God what I want and allow myself to be freely used?
sigh…yeah. me too.