We found a piece of art that Will drew with the caption… “when I grow up, I just want to help people”. I’ll try to scan it and post it here. Wow. What a goal is that!?! I want the same caption for my life. I suppose, that’s why I struggle with my current situation. Yes, I am helping my family. And yes, when I get to talk to customers and figure out their problems, I love it. However, overall, I’m in a strange place. At USD 493, I started in the computer lab, a place where I was basically in charge of the room. I had a boss, don’t we all! But, I was left to my own. Then I became the Tech Director. I was “in charge” for 4 and a half years. And we helped people. Then, I was my own boss,”in charge” and working with OTB and NS and Barry in trying to promote their careers. Now, I sit here, not being managed, not being “in charge” of much. A grunt. Helping people once in a while. Not really supporting anything. Or leading anything. No wonder I stare at a computer screen in a daze. Just mentioning “goals” from yesterday’s blog was actually helpful. Perhaps I can get on a path where I feel like I’m actually heading somewhere.
On a related note… I’ve been talking with Barry lately. And it’s been good. I miss him. And I miss helping him. He’s working with professionals now. He IS a professional. Not sure if that makes me feel good as I was instrumental in his early career and in pushing him to pursue songwriting or if it makes me feel bad because he has “moved on”. I think the former. I am very happy for him. And happy that he includes me in his success. He is where he needs to be. Mr. Underwood, make us proud.
