At least I’m getting better at something…
After a meeting this morning, I randomly mentioned the name of a certain popular post-modern pastor/author. My colleague said that he was reading a book by that author which was “interesting”. Then he asked if I had seen this author’s videos (And now I’m generally giving away the name of the author!) to which I replied that I had, but that I didn’t necessarily “get” them.
So, let the judging begin.
My rambling commentary/monologue followed:
“I’m not sure why those videos are so popular. I like the art of them. But I hear they cost tens of thousands to produce. I think they mainly serve to boost his ego. He’s a rock star and rock stars make videos.”
And then I made the comment that perhaps was the most telling and indicative of my own personal faults.
“maybe I’m just jealous”
I find myself in two different “camps” in judging others. Some I judge because I see myself as better than them; I see myself as somehow superior to them and thus, judge them for it. And then I see those whom I have somehow deemed superior to me and out of shear jealousy, I judge them.
I’m discovering a distinct correlation between this whole judging others thing and what I feel is the core sin of mankind – pride. There is a comparison competition and ultimately, I am losing.
I’ve found a harmful art.
